Krista @ 19

Workaholism

"Workaholics see work as a way to distance themselves from unwanted feelings and relationships."

I've been answering personality tests the past week and I got a very accurate scientific description of myself, making me see what I really am and what I can do. But it also said that I can be arrogant, in a way that I can be smart and arrogant at the same time. Yes, people will turn to you but when you turn your back at them they could put blades on you. I always though it might be jealousy, but now I know I'm arrogant and an immediate remedy for it is necessary.

I'm a workaholic. The web made me realize the difference between a hard worker than a workaholic. I get excited with new responsibilities that I shouldn't be. My family and friends became my second priority. I thought I was doing work because I want them to be proud of me, but they're the one that made me realize that work changes me and it might make me worse. i need to prevent it and make my family and friends first in my priority as always.

"Family-Duty-Honor" -Game of Thrones

I must admit that I hate feelings and emotions. But maybe I'm just giving myself a reason for people to go. I don't trust myself attached to someone, because I have the anxiety that one day I gave him a reason to leave. That one day, I'll be mourning because I didn't win the break-up and I let him walk away instead of me leaving first. I know how competitive I can be. 

These unwanted feelings and relationships are one of my fantasies. I live in a fantasy where there's only hope of being happy. Work is the only reality for now, as well as family and friends. Quality time with family and friends is better than being with someone indefinitely. So for now I have a new list of priorities. These are: (1)Quality time with family and friends, (2)Duty, (3)Honor, (4)Making my family and friends proud, (5)Making myself proud, and (6)My quality time.

-crischelleA