Feels and fears

I felt it before

I fear it before

Now it's happening,

That we're ending

To lose you is hard,

I should lose the feeling

But I can't discard

To fake a feeling

I have feelings, negative feelings

I fear the day to have these feelings

You gave it to me

Now, I forgot to feel a happy me

Because you were a part of my life 

I planned most of it with you

Because I thought you and I are for life

I planned most of it for you.

I want to be out

I want to cut you out

It's bitter,

But it feels better.

Better but not happier

My life without you may be a blur

But I can't stay like this no more

I have to be strong and be more

To forget is hard

But I can't disregard

That you were once with me

But now I have to move on to save me.

-crischelleA.